Beginnings don’t just come on January 1st or the first day of school, or your first day married, etc. Beginnings can happen with each new breathe. If we allow it. I am old enough to know that resolutions come and go, and if I truly want to change, it takes work, commitment, support, self-love, and lots of leaning into the pain that comes with change. I don’t need a special date for this, I can start anytime, and I often do,
I began writing everyday last year around this time. Unfortunately it wasn’t on a blog; it was text messages sent to about 25 friends. I get up in the morning, sit quietly, and try to have a conscious contact with God (Higher Power, Inner Peace, Universe, Spirit – insert whatever word you need here to get the point). This act has helped me be kinder on some days. It has helped me create space between my feelings and those of others, it has helped me get perspective on baffling situations and circumstances. An added bonus is that a few of the receivers let me know it helps them some days too.
Because most daily prayer/reflection type of books begin on January 1st, I am choosing today to do something new. This is also very scary, because I may not finish. I may just complete today’s entry and no more. But then again – maybe – just maybe – I’ll lean into the pain that is commitment and discipline and actually start a new habit that is life-giving. Maybe I’ll simply do something everyday instead of thinking about the doing and getting side-tracked in the pain and judgment of not being enough. I’m just jumping in . . .1. . . .2. . . 3:
Begin. . .
Begin doing nothing. I dare you. Take the challenge – do it today. Just sit. Set a timer for 5 minutes and watch what happens. Don’t judge, don’t move – just sit. When thoughts come – watch them – are they thoughts about the past? Are they thoughts about the future? Just watch them and come right back to now.
This may sound easy or it may sound excruciating. I promise you – if you do this long enough or for many days in row – it will be both easy and excruciating. So often we get so attached to doing and doing and doing. Sometimes we are afraid to do nothing because we are then left with our human beingness – with our thoughts and feelings. We judge ourselves and we wonder how others will judge us if we just sit and feel.
Just for today – be a human being – not a human doing.